Sarah's Glow Up
“-Self love is self care and it is not selfish”
The Glow Up
Growing up we all think we are the coolest of cool, we pick up on trends and make our own ones and just rock it. Some of us have the ability to make a statement while the rest of us have no clue what we are doing. Growing up I was more tomboy, I had dreams of being the girly girl but never had anyone to show me. I also was blessed with thick, curly, course hair, I still recall a time in 6th grade when a girl asked me if I ever brushed my hair and that was devastating. Of course I took care of myself and little did she know the days I didn’t brush it and just ran my fingers through my hair it was way better. Then comes along Dream Matte Mousse and butterfly clips to save the day, a cloud of color on your face not blended in with that unruly hair clipped back with obnoxious butterflies. I had the opportunity to become one of those trendy girls…..but that got boring and I stopped. Can you guess what trend was next, JNCO jeans…..I owned a pair that had an opening that was 20”……add that to short legs…I was a personal broom, or a mop if it was wet out.
Thank god those days were before myspace and high speed internet and proof only is only in actual 4x6 prints. As time moved on I learned to stay under the radar, rock my unruly hair in a ponytail and just deal. My Grandma took me shopping whenever we could, I tried to keep up with as much “cool” clothes as possible but I too had a horrible sense of style. I was determined to change when high school hit. I kept rocking the ponytails and added some awful eyeshadow, as time went on I started dying my hair, straightening my hair, adding more makeup as I learned and one day met my best friend who truly took the country farm girl and showed her a world of hair, fashion, and makeup. Thats when the glow up started, every day we learn new tips and tricks to keep up with society. Now through all of this I still managed to scoot by under the radar and I tried to feed off of others positivity.
Then you hit real relationships followed by break ups, Marriages and in some cases divorces, and finally becoming parents or finding out your body wasn’t meant for babies. All of these moments change you, little do we take time to realize that we are hurting our bodies and self esteem by doubts, food, drugs/alcohol, and who knows what else that we slide right back into that pre adulthood mindset. In my case I was in a whirlwind of losing my identity; after having my son, losing my father, getting married, then infertility for my daughter I was left without remember who I was, who was Sarah?!?!? I took a chance on a job opportunity and although it was extremely part time, it got me out of the house. I was also told by a very beautiful soul that I had to take 15 minutes of everyday for myself. Most days that 15 minutes comes and goes but the times I am able to find that time, I amaze myself in what I can do.
I now am a queen of youtube videos for hair and makeup, I also tune into Empowher Boutiques videos on facebook to try new looks at home. Although I am no expert I have learned how to skate by with some awesome tricks. So back to my glow up, I really wanted to book a shoot with Ashley on her Neon Shark Mini, She gave me the golden ticket and chose me to go downtown to this amazing Hostel, yes Hostel. I met several other amazing women whom I never knew before and right away started with hair and makeup. Ashley kept asking me why I wasn’t smiling and what not, I said I am. But inside I was scared shitless, I’ve done solo shoots in the past with her but nothing with other women. As the night went on a fire lit in my soul and I found out who Sarah was again. She was an amazing woman capable of achieving anything I put my mind to….along with this hot ass bitch I never knew was inside.
I walked out of that night with some of the best friends a girl could ever ask for. I went from maybe owning a piece or two of lingerie to owning my own little dresser full. I now know my worth, its okay to be a mom, a friend, a wife, a daughter and still feel hot as hell. Although we look back on ourselves and compare or make the statements “Thank God I know better now”, truth is; it’s all part of what makes us who we are. It’s our journey, I am proud of those rather unstylish clothes, horrible hair, and low points because it makes us who we are today. We are all bad ass warriors, we all looked good thin, we all looked good a little heavier, but truth is you glow up when you find yourself. I am now walking upon my half way point in this Brand Ambassador program and I still find myself growing more and more everyday. Everyday we can chose the outcome of how we are going to tackle everything that comes our way. Ladies please if you feel as if you lost yourself or if you need to lose a few pounds before you do something or accomplish something, stop there and just do what your heart is set on now. The empowering experiences you go through are life changing. So I leave you with these two pieces of advice, Give yourself 15 minutes everyday to do you (hair, makeup, quiet time) and DO THE DAMN THING!!!
